M A R U J A

Tonight, I watched the Pinoy Big Brother’s 100 seconds moment given to housemate Cassandra Ponti  to be with her mom. My heart melts when Cass made a lot of hugging with her mom, siempre na miss nya mother nya. I don’t know but the entire scene sends some kind of shivering to my bone… suddenly bigla ko na-miss nanay ko. It’s been ten years since I last saw my nanay. That’s the last time I had a glimpse, where she’s already inside her coffin. I was working abroad  when  she died. How I wish I also had 100 seconds hugging with her just before she’s gone. I don’t have much memory  about my mom when I was a kid…hindi kasi kami close. But I know  that wherever she is now …for sure she misses me too.  I am her youngest daughter… and I will always be her baby. Afterall, she wouldn’t give me the “baby” nickname if she didn’t mean it. Missed u so much, nanay.

Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:17:59 PM): do you agree to this?
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:07 PM): may nabasa ako recently
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:12 PM): sa isang chain mail
intrepid_maruja (11/3/2005 10:18:13 PM): na ano?
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:16 PM): ang sabi
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:30 PM): marry a person whom you can easily talk and laugh with
intrepid_maruja (11/3/2005 10:18:36 PM): hmmn…
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:41 PM): kasi when all things are said and done
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:48 PM): and you get old
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:18:55 PM): thats all that matters
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:19:03 PM): someone to laugh and talk with
intrepid_maruja (11/3/2005 10:19:07 PM): well said!
intrepid_maruja (11/3/2005 10:19:14 PM): i agree
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:19:19 PM): gud
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:19:31 PM): hindi talk to ha, talk WITH
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:19:39 PM): see
Daniel Joaquin (11/3/2005 10:19:52 PM): may natututunan din ako sa mga chain letters hehehe!

i encountered that same chain mail mentioned above some time ago. the words, the thoughts are truly worth to ponder. Also, in all relationship, when troubles comes as sometimes they do, i do agree to what  Jay Leno said,  "You cannot be mad at somebody who makes you laugh - it’s as simple as that."

…I know somewhere is not right and I don’t know what it is.  I can’t even figure it out. Something  is going on and im sure I don’t wanna know. I don’t  wanna ask, not a single question. I don’t wanna have  a single confrontation either - I have enough of it in my previous days of years. Been having sleepless nights.  The 3 sticks of cigarettes  slapped me with terrible headache as a result. I don’t understand. Maybe am just too focused on  something or someone who probably don’t want to have anything to do with me anymore. What’s going on? I asked myself. Maybe the sparks I have in myself  aren’t  enough to keep the fire burning.

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period this time around.
   2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a fulltime informal school called life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.
   3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial and error, experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately "works."
   4. A lesson is repeated until learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
   5. Learning lessons does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive there are lessons to be learned.
   6. "There" is no better than "here." When your "there" has become a "here" you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
   7. Others are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
   8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
   9. Your answers lie inside you. The answer to life’s questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
  10. This will often be forgotten, only to be remembered again.

I walk down the street.
There is a hole.
I don’t see it.
I fall in.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes a very long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is still a deep hole.
I pretend not to see it.
I fall in.
I pretend it’s still not my fault.
It takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is still the same deep hole.
I see it.
I fall in anyway.
It’s a habit.
I get out quicker this time.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole.
I see it.
I walk around it.
I don’t fall in.

I walk down a different street.